October 21, 2012
Finally got a charger for the computer. Something so small sure has been a large source of problems.
But it's all probably good, these past few weeks have been very hard. The 5th anniversary of Taylor's accident and death takes up about a month of my life. Just like clockwork, sometime in September I just start getting that feeling, tears start coming more easily, memories come back, dreams...
Then October comes and this year the days were the days that year, thursday of the accident, following friday his actual death and sunday the funeral.
Talked to another mom who lost her son the 28th of October the same year as Taylor. Her son was at Taylor's funeral.
She mentioned that the same day thing was bothering her too. She was at church when her husband called her to tell her. She didn't want to go to church this time.
Funny how I cant remember where I set my sell phone but I can tell you exactly the events of that time with acute detail.
I woke up the morning of the 4th at exactly the time Taylor was falling through that window. 3:30 am. 5 years later and on that day I just rewind.
Kinda wondering if that will ever stop, as years go on....
...kinda hope they don't....
Miss you son... still, and the tears I cry today carry more love than they did 5 years ago. Save a place for me.....mommie